I’m thankful for the periods of my life where I feel super inspired to create, whether that’s taking photos or blogging. A lot of times, however, I struggle with creating anything remotely cool or interesting. Unfortunately with the everlasting struggle to stay afloat within social media algorithms, these periods where I don’t feel able to create anything hurt my brand and reminding people that I exist and still put out work. My lack of interest in writing is why people forget that before I was known as a photographer, I was mainly known for my blog. And without throwing the link to my beneaththesewounds content all over the place, people would forget that I’m also an author.
It’s easy for me to become frustrated in the fact I often struggle to create anything, especially during the winter months. It’s also easy for me to give up on creating over self-doubt in my work. By all means I’m not saying that I think my book series sucks or that I’m not thankful for everyone who has read my series, but when I released the series late last year I was expecting a bigger reaction from my audience than what I had seen.
With that, I struggled to follow through with plans I had for beneaththesewounds and promoting the relapse;rebound series not long after the series came out, and to this day I still haven’t made much progress in the dreams I had for my poetry project. The same thing happened with my blog—despite having more people following my blog than my personal Instagram and my beneaththesewounds page combined, I didn’t see much of a reaction to the content I was putting out and slowly became uninterested in pouring my heart into something that people would scroll past.
After posting a new piece on beneaththesewounds in the new style I’ve been wanting to experiment with for quite some time, I had remembered a time before my shadow photography became my brand when people considered my shadow photography ‘dumb’ and ‘uninteresting’. These kinds of comments, along with my ongoing difficulties to create literally anything and the lack of response towards the content I did put out, made me feel a bit doubtful in the direction I was going despite my love for shooting shadows.
Even with all that going on, I still pushed myself to keep shooting what I loved and considered beautiful. Because at the end of the day, I wasn’t making that kind of content for anyone but myself because it’s what I enjoyed doing. It took being proud in myself in who I am as a creator and walking in my own truth for others to believe in what I do, too. Ultimately, pushing through that season helped me to establish shadow photography as a part of my brand—and now my shadow photography is what everyone knows me for, on and off Instagram.
Whether you get 10 likes or 1,000 likes on each post you make, a million comments or none at all, keep creating—even when you don’t feel like what you’re putting out is producing much fruit. I can assure you that there is someone out there that sees you and believes in your dreams even when you don’t believe in your own.
Continue to walk in your truth, and know that you are enough just as you are.